Pursuit

Now it is incredible to recall the past of love 40 years ago that my face will still have a fever and my heartbeat will accelerate. If you love someone, you must love her for a lifetime until the end of your life. It should be the mainstream life view of our generation. Today’s young people may say how boring this is. They may even say that marriage is the grave of love, but we still like to jump into such a grave, pass on an ancient value to our descendants: happiness comes from love. If there is rebirth and reincarnation, I hope I will still stick to this value and pursue such happiness. However, love seems to be a kind of fate. Some people call it fate, which is actually one thing. Before I met my lover, my later wife, I once drew a pencil painting of my dream lover. She was beautiful and dignified, and her eyes were determined to be far away. She seemed to have a kind of expectation, do not apply lead. This painting does not have a model in reality, and it is all taken for granted by itself. After the painting, I collected it and said in my heart: she is my lover. In the view of those very rational people, this kind of behavior is very childish, just like religious beliefs, it is all groundless nonsense. In fact, human intuition has a power beyond nature, which can block the continuity of thinking and find things worth pursuing outside common sense. Toynbee also believes that, the innovative activities of human spirit begin with intuition. Love does not talk about reasons, but it must talk about intuition. That is to say, when you face your love, you will naturally feel nervous, your heart beats faster, and even feel at a loss. People who have experienced love also know that after the beginning of love, they will enter the wave of emotional innovation, even they are like changing a person. Before I met my wife, I just experienced love in novel and poem. At the moment I met my wife, I was really shocked. She was almost exactly the same as my dream lover. What was more was her youthful vitality. I don’t believe in God, but at that moment, I felt that without God, many things could not be properly explained. She is my dream lover. I just believe in her existence in my dream and what can make my dream come true. I believe it is supernatural power. The mystery of love comes from the awe of fate and fate. When you see your predestined one, you will not feel any strangeness. Predestined one has already had a relationship with you, you have seen her face, even if it is subconsciously seen, subconsciously familiar, love is very like a kind of belief, because of absurdity so believe, so invest. However, there are also times of resistance. When I hugged her and kissed her for the first time, an idea really flashed in my heart. Did I accept a dream come true love like this? Is it God works? Or my own pursuit? I thought about pushing her away, but I couldn’t. I still remember that it happened in her kitchen, she was cooking, I was courting, but I couldn’t say it when I loved you, just like a deer crashed into my heart, jumping to escape. She looked at my pity and finally moved her pity, so she stretched out her hand to catch my little deer. The first love letter I wrote, stuck in the pages of war and peace, pursued love with Natsha, Andre and Biel, and described my understanding of love together. I hope that she I love can like Martha, Andre, Biel, or me. The lowest level is to accept my love letter and read it at least ten times. Natasha is lovely, but she is not familiar with the world. It was Andre who brought her into this world and into his love life. She fell in love with him at first sight. They got engaged and got married one year later. Then they separated. Andre gave her a promise and freedom. Andre pushed open Natasha, making them almost destined for nothing. When they met again, Andre had reached the last stop of his life. The tragic nature of love lasts forever. But in Andre’s last death, Natasha made him happy. Love can make death ridiculous, nothingness, and tragedy have the power to surpass tears. What it destroys is Andre’s defective life, but it cannot destroy Andre’s sublimated love. I started a meeting with my dream lover. Far happier than Andre. I am not the dictator of love, but I told her that I am the real vinegar VAT, I feel sad, and you will accompany me. Since I met her, I became tired of fighting and became tired of fame and fame. I even declared to my friends that I would not give up my love for her even if I exchange with me with the whole world. In fact, I have never tried to push her away. Instead, I want to be very close to her. After she retired, I accompanied her to surf in Hainan, listen to songs in Guangxi, and go to Mount Tai to look forward to the yuan. We have passed the middle age. We still have no lack of interest in that year. We are addicted to crazy once we play, hold hands all the way, hoping to reach 99. Love needs a lifetime of pursuit and maintenance. Only three and a half days of love die and die, and then what is abandoned is not love. The two fell in love and came together. As Christianity said, women were born by men, men were born by women, and people had to leave their parents and connect with their wives, the two become one. Men and women without love cannot become one, but they have different dreams. Men and women with different bedfellows can also have children, but they are not as precious as the crystallization of love. We had a baby the second year after marriage. Our love for babies exceeds our care for ourselves, but love is not gone, but transferred to nurturing the next generation. Once the baby had diarrhea, she looked at the look of shit full of maternal love, which made me very uncomfortable. I joked to her: I am not as good as the baby’s shit now. After the children grew up, we had children again. One day I suddenly understood that the baby came to this world, which brought meaning to this world as well as to himself. This meaning was that he not only proved that love was creative, but also find his own survival position through love life. However, love life also has a very simple side. At a certain time, the life of pursuing love only needs to say three words: eat? Where is the child? Sleep?

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