Once Love

I always feel that I should write something, but I don’t know where to start. Writing with a complex mood, sometimes I don’t know what I am doing, maybe it is time to go, and there is no reason to stay. The eagle chose the blue sky because it can soar; The fish chose the ocean because it can travel; The Steed chose the grassland because it can run; I don’t know how to choose, I don’t know what I can choose. I am like a fly climbing on the glass all the time. My future is bright, but I can’t find a way out. From the first day, I had a special feeling with her, and I couldn’t find the reason until now. I don’t know why I feel sad when thinking about it. Maybe someone will feel cold. It is such a feeling that I do not know why, which makes me more blurred in the hazy. Good intentions do bad things around me all the time. Always backfire, or there is no wish at all. When I really tried to do something with my heart, what returned me was disappointment. The previous self-trust no longer exists, the heart that once fell back, and I was immersed in fantasy. Maybe the bigger the hope, the bigger the disappointment, so I dare not have hope. All expectations have nothing to do with me. I can’t find the direction of hard work and have no courage to fight. Now I am really homesick. I don’t know who to say something. It is really uncomfortable to hold it. Such a heavy weight makes my heart load heavier. It is said that only when there is pressure can there be motivation, but the pressure is too great, and I can’t move at all. Frustration is just a stumbling block, but this stone is too big, not only blocking my way, but also blocking my sight. It used to be a blank snow, and there was a way to walk, but now there is no way for birds in cages to walk. Maybe I can go again when the stone is broken and snowed. Life slowly, there is a choice, there is a choice, there is a way, there is a way, there is a way to have life. This is a campus radio program in our high school. Hearing a song is not that I don’t love you, I think of the past. In fact, liking a song is not necessarily very pleasant, but it seems to tell our story. She and I are just like this song, thinking but dare not. Waiting for someone silently may be a kind of happiness, at least I think so. It’s not that I don’t love you, and there is a reason why this feeling will continue to cause you to be more sad; Whenever the melody of this song rings, it will bring me to memory. That was 7 years ago, I went to senior one, and she was my backseat. At that time, we had the same ambition and dream, so we were immersed in the ocean of knowledge together. Our study is full of endless fun. Once, doing physics is a science question, and then it is very difficult. I said that the teacher has the final say. She also said that the teacher let the object be free from any force, F = 0 is not over, this is the hard work. The cold jokes between us are always going on. She said, “one day I came to you on a bike and suddenly found the bike missing. What do you say? I said: The bike has tipped me off. Although it is your bike, it has a good relationship with me. There is a garden in our school. Behind the dormitory building, there are many beautiful flowers that I can’t call my name, surrounded by Ding Xiangshu, with already very old pine trees and weeping willow in the middle, there is a sculpture in the middle, and there is a blackboard below, which is used to leave messages for every graduate. The garden is neither big nor beautiful, but it is the best place for students to walk and relieve boredom. There are too many memories and happiness left by us, just a few paths let us have dreams and hopes. We call it: back garden. Every morning we will come to the back garden at the same time. The air here is the best and the quietest in the morning, and it is a holy land for learning. I never got up early before. Once, I had a bad belly and accidentally got up early. Because the back garden was behind the dormitory building, I saw many people studying hard and accidentally saw her, suddenly there was a feeling of rapid heartbeat and fascination, just like going to study with her. So the next day, I got up very early, the main purpose was to see her. Turn off the alarm clock, Wash your face, take the English book that has never been turned over, and run to the back garden. I found a suitable place to observe her without disturbing her and began my recitation. In this way, she became my motivation to learn. Even I couldn’t believe it myself. I actually learned English continuously that month. In the monthly examination three months later, my English scores have made qualitative progress. The English teacher Haite praised me and made my heart beautiful. After class, she said: It seems that you didn’t learn in the back garden of that month. I was quite surprised. I chose the position on purpose. How could she find it? I smiled and said: Just so so. You haven’t learned for nothing in the past three months. The result is really unprecedented. She said: Did you see me studying there and say hello to me? Aren’t I afraid to disturb your study? Oh, hey, I don’t believe it. Don’t you know where I am when you look at a beautiful woman? I smiled and said: how do you know? Were you paying attention to me, a handsome guy? She said with a sarcastic tone: Just you, handsome boy? I think it’s brother Yan. It’s almost the same. I said: each other, isn’t it ugly girl? When we are together, there are always endless words, endless days and endless lessons. She always encourages me: falling down is not always covered with scars, failure is not always a loss, nightmares are not always connected with nightmares, and one day you will wake up with morning light. At this time, I will say: I laugh at the sky with my own knife, and I will start from scratch. In this way, we work together to continue our humor. Time flies, time flies, and the college entrance examination comes in a flash. We have a dinner together. I only remember that day, I drank a lot of wine and said a lot of words. We talked about the future for the first time and felt sad because we were afraid of tears flowing out in front of her, so I said in the fastest way, don’t rush back to the dormitory. I spent a night with my friends in our dormitory, because this was the last night we were together. The class teacher held a class meeting, which ended in nostalgia and crying, in this way, we went home to prepare for the college entrance examination. We intended to take the same school, but the college entrance examination was always a few happy and worried. When I was near the college entrance examination, I was ill and only admitted to a junior college. I don’t know what happened, she also lost. But she plans to review. But I went to school far away. In this way, due to remote reasons, our relationship has undergone subtle changes. I disturb his study, so I seldom contact her. Just make a phone call to say hello if you really want to. Maybe it has been a long time and there are fewer and fewer words between us. In college, because I am single, our few single friends often mingled together. In college, we completely depraved. When I went back to school to see her during the winter vacation, she had already held hands with another handsome boy. At that time, I forced a smile and had an unforgettable meal with them. I know it was my giving up, which eventually led to two boundless efforts in the past five years. I worked hard together. I had no place to talk sadly. Five-in-a-row, Yi Bozhong, wanted to say a thousand tears, the people in Xianyang are not here, and the buildings are empty. Every time I hear this song is not that I don’t love you, I have a special feeling. In fact, I like to listen to a song, not necessarily how nice it is, but it tells our story.

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